So PA Man actually called and made an appt. for this Tuesday with the therapist I found weeks ago….Interesting.
I wonder why? Is it because he feels the “need” to be the “good” dad and show his kids that he’s “trying?”
Or is it because he now knows his family has seen him for what he is and won’t be fooled by his “Poor wittle, ole me…I had a mean mom and dad and you all need to understand and feel sorry for me the rest of my life!!”
Or is he REALLY tired of living “this way” as he’s told me repeatedly??
Or is he finally seeing that I AM stronger than I’ve ever been before and not afraid of letting out all his secrets and certainly not afraid to stand on my own two feet…without him??
I guess time will tell, won’t it? But I AM cynical about this latest move, but I’ll give him the benefit of the doubt…for now.
I mean really, when you think about it…..it’s a win win for me, either way it goes…If he goes to counseling and quits AGAIN, then this will be the FOURTH time he’s said he’ll go and then quits….and if he does continue going, but there is NO change in his behavior, well, that’s just another example of WHY we have to separate and it will be easier for my family to accept that PA Man isn’t serious about working to heal our marriage.
BUT maybe he will continue counseling, and he will actually see how harmful his behavior truly his…and let God change his hardened, prideful heart….I DO believe in miracles and for that to happen it will surely take a miracle!
So now it’s a waiting game.
Will keep you posted.