PA Man is out of town this week….AND next week! 😀 Can you say HaPpY DaNcE??
And he was gone the week before last AND the week before that!
I LOVE his job!! LOL!
The boys and I are having so much fun…I made a delicious dinner last night, and my married son and DIL came over…they stayed until 11:00…on a work night!
We are a family…minus the father. And I find that sad…that no one misses him.
In fact, son #3, when he came down for dinner, asked, “Where dad?” And I said “He’s out of town, remember?” Son #3, “Oh, right, I forgot.”
They don’t care….they never ask if he arrived safely. Or when he’ll be home….And I know that this is part of being older teens/young adults….but still…they just never ask about him at all!
And I get it. I really do! Because I’m the same way! I wish it wasn’t like that…but it is.
I don’t think I love him anymore….well, yes, I DO love him….but I’m not IN love with him.
I had a dream 2 nights ago…Darn the Hallmark Channel and their stupid movies! LOL!
I was in love…I mean LOVE!!! The heart pounding, can’t wait to be in his arms kind of love!!
In the dream, I was older than the man I was so deeply in love with….and I got cold feet and was going to leave…but his family BEGGED me to stay, to wait for my love to get back….I have no idea where he was…it WAS a dream and it made no sense. As most dreams do! LOL
So I waited….and I felt such love from my dream mans family…and when dream man came….I felt so complete, so LOVED, so WANTED, so CHERISHED….that when I woke up, I was crushed that it had only been a dream.
I wanted to cry.
Because it wasn’t real. Because I realized that I’ve NEVER felt like what I felt in that dream…
But I didn’t cry….I pushed the sadness away, got up, and went about my day, because this is real life, and I’m too old to have happily ever afters…I’m 53, I had my chance….and now it’s gone.
But if you are reading this….if you’re young, if you have your whole life ahead of you still…GO! Get out!! There ARE decent, kind, loving men out there!
Don’t settle for this half life! Find a love that will cherish you, protect you, support you…it does exists!!
Just don’t settle for anything less!! Have a dream…and hold on to it with both hands and go for it! 🙂