That’s what my friend Paula suggested to me….I’m addicted to Hopeium…
I live in the HOPE that one day PA Man will suddenly wake up and say “Oh my gosh, what am I doing?? I’m ruining my marriage and hurting my wife! I have to stop this behavior right now!!”
And boom….he’ll be a new man!!
Right. Never gonna happen!
I suggested counseling again….he doesn’t NEED counseling….he needs to do “this” on his own…what “this” is…who knows!
I’m a bit discouraged at the mo….PA Man and I went on a cruise last week….and yes, I had HOPE…stupid four letter word…that PA Man would open up to me, reconnect under the stars, see how lonely I truly am! HA! Fat chance!
We barely talked….just the same boring stuff….I looked around as we sat silently eating our lunch, and it hit me….we have ZERO communication skills….we can’t talk to each other. We don’t know how!!
On Monday evening I was feeling a bit homesick, and started crying a little, and PA Man just told me it would be ok…then he went to bed..at 9:30pm!! I sat on the balcony, alone, crying just a little bit, and berating myself for going on that stupid cruise!
I wanted to be home with my family, THAT is where I belong, not there with HIM, being ignored!! I won’t make that mistake again! Any more vacations, the whole family goes or it’s not happening!
A few days later, when I brought that up, and how much that hurt me, OF COURSE he was quick to defend himself….He DID come over and give me a hug…Uh no, I was right there, you did NOT! And so the conversation went!
So I shut up, because his gas lighting me always starts to confuse me…and then I start second guessing myself…tell me dear reader, am I the only one who does this??
I really need to start writing things down as they happen, because he confuses me so much! Ugh!!
One last thing that happened….The cruise ship we were on had a rock climbing wall and I really wanted to try it!
So we both signed up for it, and PA Man went first, so I could take several pics and a short video of him….then it was my turn…I showed him how to work my phone, to switch back and forth between pics and the video…it’s not hard, just swipe your finger on the screen. This man works on multi million dollar equipment…surely he can take a few pics…right??
LOL! You already know what happened….PA Man didn’t take one single pic of me climbing that dang wall! He kept it on video the whole freaking time!!!
This after I had explained to him to please make sure he gets several close ups, because I wanted to post them on FB and Instagram…NOT.ONE.SINGLE.PICTURE!
When I asked him WHY didn’t you take some pics, he said he thought I’d rather have a video of my climb…really?? After I specifically asked him to take several pics, then a few seconds of the video?? REALLY???? Jerk!!
He then suggested that I do the climb again, so he could take the pics for me…Uh No thanks, I learned my lesson very well the first time! Jerk!!
And so it goes in the ‘ol PA hacienda….I hope you all had a marvelous Mothers Day….We were traveling back from the cruise, a 12 hour drive that was mostly silent….we had argued earlier, so the ride home was VERY quiet!
At one point I actually timed it and we went over THREE hours without saying a word to each other!
Oh well it just frustrates me when I talk to him …so it was probably better for us to ignore each other, LOL!