So I’m a bit disappointed….My good friend, L, called today, I’ve known her for over 35 yrs, and she knows all about me and PA Man and the issues we have…
Anyway, she has an ex that cheated on her, so of course I confided in her when I found out about PA Man and the Cow…
BUT things changed when she came for a visit several months ago…PA Man was his usual funny, charming self….and since then, I’ve noticed she goes quiet when I talk to her about PA Man and how lonely I feel….and lately, she’s taken to defending him!!
Today, when I was telling her about our recent trip away and how disappointed I was that we didn’t connect emotionally and the long silences between us….She started DEFENDING PA Man!!
She said things like “Well, he’s a man, and you know how men can be.” Or “Maybe you’re expecting too much from him.”
She said more, defending him, but I won’t bore you…because if you’re here reading this you KNOW how it is living with a PA!! And my friend doesn’t want to hear about it!
But her life is pretty good right now, the ex has been gone for years, she’s raising her three older kids by herself, has a great job….why would she want to hear about MY life…I guess I don’t blame her…it’s pretty boring and depressing, isn’t it?
And now….I have no one. No one to talk to. Well, I have this blog, and my sweet online friend, Paula. But anyone here where I can talk face to face, who cares about me? No.
I’m just a bit hurt and soooo disappointed!! Am I to hard on him? Am I expecting too much? Should I just shut my mouth and not expect anything from PA Man, let him ignore me for days on end when I try to reach out to him??
We’ve been back 5 days now…and he hasn’t once asked me why I’m so quiet, why I’m not talking…the only time I’ve talked to him is when it’s necessary….and he doesn’t seem to care!
He came home from work a while ago, asked how my day was, I said “Fine” And he then asked me if I wanted to go out to dinner!
I felt like screaming “YES, I’d love to go out to dinner, but I want to go with someone who will TALK to me about our LIFE!!! NOT your work, not the orders that have come in this week, not the lives of the other employees!!”
But I said “No, thank you.” And now he’s laying on the couch, fast asleep…..at 6:30 in the evening. And it’s a Friday, and he’s going out of town on Monday.
Well, I guess I’ll go have a good cry, release some of my frustration, then go plant the flowers I bought today.
Have a good weekend.